Phobias

By this time in my life I've heard over thousands of different phobias. Some people are afraid of spiders, some snakes, others...cookies? Yes, it's true, there's a scientifically named phobia for just about anything that makes a person freak. A phobia can be defined as an intense, irrational fear of an object or situation (yes I did pay attention in psychology!) Only until recently did I realize I fall victim to one specific phobia- Apiphobia (yes, I googled it just now.) It's a seriously ridiculous fear of bees.
I have never understood why people have certian phobias. I've seen many tv shows that display erratic, nonsensical freak outs from guests who get exposed to the thing that makes them so afraid. I always thought it was silly for them to react that way, or that they were just putting on a show for the camera.
As I research phobias more I'm realizing that most phobias are not a joke, I certainly know my fear of bees is no joke. I'm sitting at my laptop now trying to distract myself from the little creature sleazin' around my ceiling. Yes, I am up at 1am when I need to be sleeping because I will not let myself sleep in the same room as this horrible wasp. Even seeing the words makes me cringe. Every five to ten seconds I need to look behind me where I saw it last to see if it returned. I have a spindle from my porch and a bottle of bleach ready to attack. Every little sensation I feel on my skin has me shuttering in fear, every piece of fiber under my foot sets my heart racing thinking it's the terror. I truly hate feeling like this over a stupid bee, but I suppose the most logical reasoning I have is that I think it's wrong that I am terrified to be in my own room, MY room. I'm very territorial about my space and believe that when I want to be alone, I REALLY want to be completely alone. Knowing there's something in the room that could hurt me during sleep just scares the living daylights out of me. I don't know how I'm going to cope with this every summer for the rest of my life...I'm just praying that along with the house repairs a new window can be installed in my room, because I've truly had more than enough of being terrified.

I truly empathize with anyone who has a phobia. I know it isn't a joke, and I'm starting to think I need to take care of the problem more theraputically.